A Great Soul

In Simple Words My Father was a Great Soul so simple, honest, straightforward, sensitive, high in values that his each and every word rather statement still linger in my ears. at every step of my life I feel that i get defeated by his ideology as i feel all the time as how a person can preserve his identity, values, ideology, culture in such a fast changing world and declining social culture as well as changing social structure not fitting the older generations. After his sudden unexpected demise on the midnight of 29th November 2004 at 1.50 AM (IST) or say 1.50 AM on 30th November 2004 as per english date I get totally broken as I felt that something hidden unexposed is silently killing me day by day . I could never explain my soul pain to no one even to my family members. There are many things which even my other family members will come to know through this write up here. Actually and honestly said I had got lot of waves and intuitions regarding his farewell to abode in many different ways but as a foolhardy even after getting lot of hints and waves and intuitions with proofs i could not or say never believe that my father is passing through a last phase or say last time of his life . And It will be a great pain in my soul for ever even till my death. In 2004 just a few months ago in the months of April and May we were on the Trips of Gujarat once when we all were near Somnath Temple we have decided to take Bath in the Sea nearby. Just at that moment I was sitting on the stairs of the Temple. And to my surprise when my father was returning back taking a bath he was directing towards me. as a few minutes ahead I had finished my Bath. Just that moment I have seen a White Body resembling my father pretending as a SOUL or GHOST or something like an unforeseen invisible body is approaching me . I got trembled and felt why I have seen this. but at that stage I was never supposed that it was the first signal that the life of my father is over and he is just passing out his remaining days to fulfill his last KARMAS. So that pain of knowing about his departure in advance but my inactivities to perform some duties towards him filled me up with a deep agony and pain. Not only this God has given me several chances to recognize his departure to his final home at abode but as I said i was having a blindfolded faith and trust on the subject matter of 'LIFE' that I never believed that 'DEATH' comes and when come no one in the UNIVERSE can be spared of it. What ever has born or exist has existed or born to be finished or died . This reality I have accepted in a span of 15 years after the death of my father as my mother in 2009 may 19th and my lot of Relatives and friends and colleagues. I have lost all my senses and struggled hard to believe that LIFE HAS TO BE CREATED BUT DEATH IS IMMORTAL. As I could not perform any duty to my father I am trying to put a little effort to put his small personal world of emoptions and sensitivities in front of the world. I have collected, assimilated, compiled and put it as is where is position to preserve it's sanctity, originality and purity. and so hereby presenting his collections in his original form in his handwriting scanned and presented. This is the only TRIBUTE to him by me.